نقطة

نقطة بداية السطر
أنهيت بها عمر..
لأبدأ ولادتي بين ندف الثلج 
بعيدا عن تلك الشمس القديمة وذلك القمر
وأصرخ بأغنية فرح
تخلو من موال قهر
نقطة بعد نقطة
استطرد فيها حاضر 
لا يتذكر من الموت خبر
لا يتأرجح بين وجع يأس
من انعدام خيار في وجهات السفر
نقطة تبدأ دون خوف
عارية من أعباء الجهل
تتوق للرقص تحت المطر
نقطة
تسجل فيها محاولة أخيرة
حتى لا يكتب اسمي على الشاهد
حلما انتحر

stateless being

Leap of faith
In the unknown
To follow fate
Far from all that I have roamed
Searching for that magic glue
Curing me to not hesitate
Put back all broken pieces inside
Seperate from what is a lie and true
I have forgotten my own
Speeding my stride
Fearing being late
Now I'm far from whom that watered my soul
Feeling dry like I've lost it all
Why must I tear pages to rewrite my tale
Only to face how I fail
Time and time again
I punish myself
Maybe for not knowing more
How to live in the present
Until it is too late
My clock is always off
Either stuck in the past
Or stumbling on the future
I'm mad..I'm sane
A human constantly in pain
Falling for dreams while wide awake

Phoenix

Shut me out
From my own voice
I’m Battered…
Have I lost choice?
Of all what has mattered..
I’m left hallow
Skeleton of wounds
Suffocating, lonely & shallow
Easily falling, silently shattered 
Collected by doubt
Yet still here
Breathing, 
Something in me needing to lash out
Tired of this circle
Turning wheel in same place
I must face
I am not to waste
I can, I am able to rejoice!

Frequent Travel

I am not here to rent
or to build castles in the wind
my soles sore
leaving behind defeated wars
seeking shelter
as my soul
not simple yet an open door
turning scars to wall art
for visitors to see yet not touch
I could not rush
to have just an autograph

when there is so much more to uncover
layers of old paint 
to win a new color
shades of grey, I escape
a color of heart on my brush
I await to start
 a tapestry of truth

6 degrees of seperation

As exhaustion lays me down
wary of my past
dragging the anticipating present
I have shed off all I could
but my thoughts refuses to depart
leaving me empty to draw a new face
a dream emerge to a reality to last
crime of wrong time, wrong place,
while I'm innocent
of all, but what I push to erase
aghast by death
while life in me cries to breath
how to separate this pain
uniting all borders within me
pushing away hands trying to reach me
unworthy I am to this kindness
escaping a cold war
while hot blood gushing on my backstreet
covering my last footsteps
that is roaming other countries
searching another home
it is all borrowed
it is all for sale
it is all hollow
without my love
for it's all, I long for and ever quest.

Eclipse

I’ll try

Once more

To knock on your door

Just to make sense

Call it gullible innocence

Revived by my heart

While I cry

In mourning what shot down before

 it could reach the sky

Landing corpse on the floor

I refuse to believe

other than your words

despite of the action’s hurt

turning me away broken & sore

my soul refuses to bury

my truth

at your feet it lies

while shovel is in your hand

I’m wary

hoping it will build instead

I await

For you to sing a different lullaby

And read me with patience a child’s story

Instead of a dismissing goodbye

22 Oct

Lego city

city of sin
where do I begin
to raise my cases of hit & run
map-less ..choking it in
I'm swollen, I'm bruised
by careless bursting balloon. constantly stung

leaving me dazed & confused
who is my next of kin
maiming my limbs
with fake embraces
cold as your brand new bricks
plastic faces
stale with greed
disintegrating human creed
all wanting more
by being less
I refuse
hating to rest
in an expensive dress
but attracting feelings that are cheap