Bloodshed
screams outside my head
standing on the border
neither alive nor dead
I’ve been numb
For me not to feel anyone
more than they do themselves
I’ve been dumb
Giving more to everyone
Than to my own true self
Every tear I shed
Is enough for a water bed
Making me see sick
Vomiting every word I’ve said
Now I’m empty from all my wants
Full of holes caused by greed
Void of faith
breaking webs of lies & deceit
I’m everywhere
For me not to be here
I’m everyone
Not too far neither too near
When reality is too ugly
For me to hear
I choose my own antidote
A nobody or a somebody
With all the wrong colours
Unaccepted by any creed
Truth has always been misused
Why should I expect just for once
any different deed!
