All them words
we spoke
we heard
that made us laugh
that made us hurt
you help me pick them up
from the trees of my mind
still help me see where I am blind
from all the tears I have shed of missing you
although you have left my side
the hardest penalty
in this game of life
beaten by my own pride
all I'm guilty of
everytime..I run & hide
from how perfect
from how distorted
just because I couldn't just be
learning it the hard way
with every fall, with every stride
a new lesson I write to your name
lifting little by little the pain
and learning  love
again
and again

how can I be free
replace doubt with glee
when you freeze yourself with me
step back and lock
leaving me stuck
no flow to follow
but my inner fear
that this is only a stop by
you were never really near
that crude..rude notion
downsizing my emotion
acting with words
for me to read too bold
returning receipt
just before it gets sold
I wish I could zero back
instead of this poor filled rack
jokes aside
dreams aside
how did we side track?

haven't you heard
my silence weeping
mourning emotion's sweeping
gunned down by your hasty bullet words
and I'm choked..choked on love smeared with hurt
awaiting the night to fall
where I can start my own domestic cleaning
wiping it all ..
wishing for morning sun
dry enough to burn this mildew off my wall
and I'm able to stretch every wrinkle in my heart
where sadness run & hide
playing seek in my head
while wishes try to dry clean my bed
for a new night with a new moon
announcing all these monsters dead