Rewind & repeat

repeat..repeat

a perfect lie

a perfect cheat

this is your stamp

of individuality

another false receipt

of another counterfeit

not even a pity for you

a prayer rejects at your dirty feet

through your horrid darkness

my God still finds a heartbeat

Unforgiven

you make me retreat

from my own skin

burying within

everything sweet

turning it to sin

My silence

deafening

shutting down

your forged existence

I only understand what you cause me to feel

and I feel alone

needless of your constant failed attempts

a reverse contribution to my truth

which I'm now bound

I'm no longer obliged to be your clone

in any name

for any game

ashamed

of my gullible acceptance

realization too profound

what it is now worthy to mourn

you tell me you will forsake this wonder

still pursuing a greater cause

but still not expecting me to pause

my soul to protect yet from another blunder

you leap and I should take the fall?

leaving my safe wall

to wander between random lightning & aimless thunder

place my trust….my being

for words

as I’ve never before heard

forever healing hurt

eternally bleeding

these dreams keep leaking

turning me cold un-needing

joking…choking ?

this train of thought is broken

your waves causing me dizzy spill

a tale so predictable to tell

saying goodbye same chapter of hello

I have rage for silence to ponder

sick of playing a repeated role

my existence is not intended for your goal

or my dreams to pause or my faith to halt

until you figure what is yours

pushing me to feel what you won’t

trust & faith in this unknown

sliding doors

Apart ready with a departing bag

together carving names in stone

can it be anything but sad

I wish I had never known..

Empty bang

what goes around comes around

words so profound

what could you have found

in your own reflection

any shred of satisfaction

your blood line by it will be bound

it will boomerang

every girl with a broken soul had sang

it may not show today

but you're just a record

of an abused yesterday

tomorrow will be your hound

sniffing your joyless bones

scattered without a warm home

as the broken hearts you buried behind

I thought I could do this

I thought I could hush

despite the rush

All the doubt

Lurking inside of me

The price is too high

to jump without a parachute

just target practice

for you to perfect to shoot

I had better to understand such

hiding in secrets untold

a perfect thief too bold

It is never enough

I’m not yet that numb

Even though bruised by dream undone

It takes death to see

the kind of memories you leave behind

I wish I'm able to replace this shame

no one here is to blame

but me

now in my own dug grave repenting

a kitsch

how simple

you are

how cliché

to call that a victory

legacy of a rogue

escaping with your false manhood

hiding between your legs

claiming something you misunderstood

as if you have the ability to judge

between what’s not worthy

and what is good

while you were the one

that keep failing the test

cutting loose your own climbing rope

your escapades to reach the highest

to be as far away from your lows